Since the Lord gave me a “vision” several months ago, I have been waiting for His perfect timing. I have struggled with this and had doubts. However, the Lord is faithful and true at all times and has let me know numerous times when I have been in these times of doubt. Whether it is perfect scripture at the perfect time, a photo, an encounter or a spoke word I have heard, He assures me of His continued work in my life to await His precious gift. Timing is everything.
Last night, I had a moment of question; but not lack of faith in Him. This morning, I went to my Girlfriends in God devotional and it was PERFECT!!!
This is just the latest answer I have received over these last several months. WOW! He is my world and I am so amazed by His devotion to me, a sinner, flawed so much; but devoted to Him and His love for me.
In the past, I have seen my prayers answered in so many ways. I have heard His voice, LOUD AND CLEAR, in my head when I was giving up, telling me to stand! I am devoted to Him and His perfect timing. I despise when the enemy tries to push doubt into my heart and mind. I know, I have seen and I will wait.
I remind myself constantly that He is faithful. I remember all the times in the Bible that he has said, “Remember what I did for you in the past…..”. I bring up those past blessing and remember and pray to Him in gratitude for His patience with me. I pray my apologies for doubting, even for a second and I pray to Him that I will use my memories of His blessings to get me through until His perfect timing.
THANK YOU GOD!
My Son ~~ He was driving me crazy yesterday. He comes into the living room, looks at my knee and says, “What did you do to your knee, Mom?” I swear to you, I looked at him as if he had grown two heads and said, “I told you yesterday that I fell in the driveway. We had an entire conversation where you asked me what I had done on Wednesday and I told you it all.”
So, I am more than a little annoyed. I turn to an “expert” on boys. A friend who has 3 of them. I ask if this is normal boy behavior at the age of 17. Turns out, it IS. UGH! Then, my son has the audacity to tell me, “You know, I really don’t know why you tell me “blah, blah, blah”, I don’t even care.”
Really? WOW! But wait, there’s more! He gets annoyed with me that I am not talking to him. I had nothing to say, so I was just quiet. He asks me what is wrong and I tell him nothing. He’s not convinced, so I begin to read him an article I was reading about what “Not” to put in your vagina and he took off like a shot. SMH!
So as I am discussing my frustrations with my “expert”, I hear the boy in question laughing and talking to his friends on his PS4. Expert tells me that, too, is typical boy behavior.
So, as a single mother, no man in my life; but the boy, I am at a loss. However, I am not giving up, even though last night I might have wanted to give him up for adoption. LOL! Que sera sera!!!