In 2009, when my ex tried to kill me, he managed to dislocate my left shoulder. It has not been the same since. It took me several months to get it to stop popping out and having to put it back in place by slapping it into the wall. Not fun.
Well, this past week, I lifted my arm and BOOM! It is ruined! I’m in an immobilizer sling right now and awaiting an MRI on Thursday and follow up with an Orthopedic dr. UGH!!! I can’t believe this is happening. I can never seem to catch a break!
The pain is immense. It has been so bad that today is the first day I haven’t sat up and vomited. I’m taking Tylenol for the pain. Yup, that’s it. Nothing more. Thank you body for hating me so much that I can’t take anything stronger.
At present, I am cursing the universe for this one. I’m also cursing the ex for it as well. I can’t brush my hair. I can’t lift my arm so I can only imagine when I’ll be able to wash it and going to the bathroom is murder! I never knew how hard it was to pull up the panties one handed until now. OH and the dance I have to do to accomplish it is too funny.
I cannot even begin to tell you the pain this thing has caused me over the last 8 years; but I never expected it to turn out like this. I even kept my kid out of school to help me; because I am useless. UGH!
Now, I await test results and doctor inquiries. I am not happy about this at all. No I Am NOT! It’s times like this, I wish I had someone who could take care of me. Alas, I do not, so I will figure out how to do it all on my own. That’s how I usually do things anyway, so why should this be any different.
Any movement is painful. I have cried more than I care to admit from the pain. Sleeping is hard. Changing clothes is hard. I changed into this nightgown and I will not be out of it anytime soon. IT HURT!!!!
Time is crawling by slowly. I’m trying not to borrow trouble; but I guess I need to just pray and hope. It is all I can do at this point.