Today is the anniversary of the Crucifixion of Jesus Christ, my Lord & Savior. On this day, God gave His Son to save the world. ME! I am awed and honored by this sacrifice, for a sinner like me.
I’m currently doing a personal bible study on Max Lucado’s book, “He Still Moves Stones” and it is wonderful. God still uses the same book to teach us things that are applicable to us today, The Bible. The bible is the LIVING word of God. What was once applied to our world 2,000 plus years ago, is still applied today. I find my strength in reading God’s word.
For me, I am deep in the word today, looking for answers to today’s situations and I have been finding them. In Max’s book, he pointed out that even Jesus’ family disrespected Him in his own home town and He left them behind. Much like I have left my sisters and father behind due to their dislike of me. WOW!
Prayer was today’s chapter and I must say that I’ve been praying A LOT lately. I’ve always prayed at the drop of a dime. If someone is in need, I pray right then for them. I’ve never been one to shy away from asking my Father to help those in need. However, I also love to converse with Him. I tell Him everything. I have regular conversations with him everyday.
I remember being in a bible study several years ago and our teacher mentioned that she knew a woman years ago who prayed to God to find her keys. My teacher thought that was a bit silly. She asked the woman why she did that and her response was, “If He can help me find my keys, imagine what He can do for my big needs.” And from that day forward, I’ve told Him EVERYTHING!
I’ve asked God to help me lay hands on papers I’ve mislaid and found. I’ve asked God to help me to calm down when I was upset or heard bad news and He has. Over & over God has answered prayer after prayer for me. I am so faithful to Him and I believe wholeheartedly that He will see to my needs. That is why I am waiting on Him to fulfill His promise to me about His plan for my life. I’m so excited to see it come to fruition and I know there is a lesson in the waiting. Of course, for me it is to practice patience, my biggest weakness.
When I am in doubt, being beaten up by the enemy, I pray to Him for strength or clarity or whatever it is that I am in need of at that point. He delivers. I prayed for clarity on the “who” and he sent me four signs in one morning that it was, indeed, him. I prayed for it “NOW” and He sent me several scriptures on His perfect timing. He even made my next morning Daily Devotional on waiting for His perfect timing. I’ve had doubts it truly is “him” and for Valentine’s day, I had a Hello Kitty valentine show up in my FB feed where Kitty was sending one to “his name”. It’s been 5 months since promise and I have struggled. Each time I battle my depression, I am feeling a lot of pain, I am missing this person, I stumble; but I always get up.
Two days ago, I asked for clarity, again, and the cartoon character with his name popped up. When I told God I completely give up on this person, I turn on the television in the morning and the first thing they say is HIS NAME parkway is shut down. FIRST THING!!! All I can say is, it’s HARD to wait when your patience is near non-existent. LOL!
Of course, it doesn’t help that this man is driving me nuts with his denial. I think he is not afraid of the future; but afraid that the past will repeat itself and cause him pain. I have seen what has happened to him and I grieve for his loss. I have cried gallons of tears for him and mourn over his loss. I pray for him. I pray for his healing and strength and family and that if he is not for me, that God will banish him from my heart and mind. So far, God hasn’t done so and keeps him in my focus. 😀
In the last year, I have grown so much spiritually. I am so happy with my relationship with God. I am glad that I can go to Him for everything and anything. My faith is strong. My love for Him is eternal. My belief in His plan for me is solid.
So, on this anniversary of the greatest sacrifice the world has ever seen, I praise my Lord and Savior for who He is, what He has done for me and where I am in His world.
He is Risen! ❤