Last week, after dropping my son off at school, I turned onto my street and came to a stop. Why? Bunnies. There were 3 of them blocking the road. Wouldn’t move, so I had to get out of the car and shoo them out of harms way. Yesterday, it was ducks! Couple of weeks ago, it was ibis. I am blessed to live in an area where I can see so many animals living free.
Yesterday, I was doubly blessed. I’d gone to the VA for a dental appointment and as usual, afterwards I was in misery due to my TMJ and Trigeminal Neuralgia. I was paying more attention to my pain and getting home to take more Tylenol than I was anything else when I spotted a police car and instantly knew I was in trouble. Yup, that’s right, I was speeding. UGH!!! I pulled over and the officer asked if I knew why he pulled me over and of course, I admitted my sin. No sense playing the innocence game, we both knew what I’d done.
Barely holding myself together, I handed him all my paperwork and waited for the ticket we both knew I deserved. He walked away and I bowed my head. “Dear Lord, help me. I know I am in the wrong; but please have mercy on me. Amen.” Moments after I raised my head, I saw the officer was returning to me. “This is your lucky day. The printer just broke in my car and I can’t give you a ticket. Slow down and have a nice day.”
I thanked him. Tears sprang into my eyes. I looked up and praised God for His mercies. Prayer is not always instant gratification. Sometimes it’s a hard lesson, won over time. Sometimes they’re not answered in the way we think they should be.
Isaiah 55:8-9 New King James Version 8 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. 9 “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.”
Scripture tells us that we don’t know how or why God does what He does, just that He knows better than we do. Sometimes that “no” is for our own good. Though I regret nothing in my life, I sometimes wish I’d heeded His warning by listening to my “gut feeling” instead of ignoring that voice.
Over the last year, I’ve grown in ways I never imagined and it is all because I’ve tuned into the voice of my Lord. He speaks to me in so many ways as to open up my heart, my mind, and my dependence on Him for all things. Because I have done this, I see the blessings He bestows on me in the smallest and largest of ways. I see God in the details. I see His hands all over my life.
He has firmly closed doors I was still willing to walk through. He has opened doors and gently push me through them in order to give me more. He has spoken volumes to me when I’ve asked Him to lead me and show me.
Last night, my son and I attended the Memorial Service of a dear friend. She passed after 73 years of love and kindness in service to the Lord. When we first met her, she and her husband were the greeters at our church. Each Sunday, they would open the doors, welcome us in and hand us a bulletin.
I shared a wonderful story about her with those in attendance about our 1st Cub Scout Sunday with our new church. I had called up our Pastor and spoke with him about Cub Scout Sunday and asked him what my son could do for our church on that day. He assigned my son to Judy and an instant bond grew between the two. In the last few years, she’s been absent from our service; but not from our hearts. An injury, followed by several mini strokes, kept her from rejoicing in the Lord with us; but she was never far from our hearts. We celebrated her life last night and shared our stories about her and wished her Godspeed. This lovely lady is home with our Lord, greeting everyone welcome at the Pearly gates.
I can only hope that I will be as fondly remembered as she is by us all. I want to be a blessing to those I know and meet, just like Judy. ❤